Ward Care...Slowly Draining my Will to Live

Okay, not true.  It's not slowly draining...it's quickly draining.  What a week.  Three mornings in a row of getting up at 5 a.m.  Not very popular with one who has trouble being away at 7 a.m.  One of the washers went on the fritz last night.  So, we're down to one washer for a mountain of laundry.  Fun, fun.  I've gotten to clean dog room every a.m. shift I've been on, and thankfully, there hasn't been to much gross stuff to clean up.  Yay!

Finals are next week.  I can't believe I'm headed into my final phase of classes.  I cannot wait to be done!  This next eleven weeks are going to be nothing short of hectic and it is quite possible I may go crazy.  No, I won't go crazy, but I'm sure I'll be tempted toward that end.

Reading over my last few posts, I find that I'm very disgruntled with myself.  I sound whiny (spelling?), and not at all like the person I imagine myself to be.  Let me just say this, I'm done moping about things I have no control over.  Life's too short, and it's not worth it.

While I'm thinking about it, does anyone know what the tag on the 2/13 episode of Psych was?  My tape cut out right before the final commercial break. 

Stressed? Me? No....

Okay, so upon reading over my last blog entry I realized that it wasn't really a true reflection of how I felt.  There were parts of it that were true.  However, I wrote it and I probably shouldn't have.  See, I've been very stressed, and I'm not thinking straight.  I'm speaking (or in this case writing) and then thinking.  Not necessarily a wise move.  Nothing too deep tonight, I'm just really tired and stressed out.  Don't take me seriously right now. 

Countdown to Extern: 12 weeks and 2 days!

Am I wise or just scared?

I had a very disturbing realization yesterday.  I was at the zoo, and since it was a fairly nice day there were loads of parents out with their kids.  This meant many ankle biters and strollers were everywhere you looked.  Now, I'll be honest, I'm not a kid person.  They tend to freak me out.  I don't know how I managed to babysit in junior high and high school or teach a 3 & 4 year old Sunday School class when I was younger.  I suppose part of it can be blamed on my being an only child.  However, even though I'm not crazy about kids, I've always believed that one day I'll get married and have at least one or two little monsters.  I realized yesterday that even if I do eventually get married, I probably won't have kids for the sole reason that I would want to be a stay at home mom.  I can't be a stay at home mom because I've racked up thousands of dollars in school debt.  This means I'll be working from here until I die to pay off said debts.  I don't think it's fair, or right of me to ask any guy to be willing to let me be a stay at home mom and have him work extra hard to pay off my student loans.  Of couse, every guy seems to want to be a dad, so if a guy knows that I'm unwilling to have children unless I can stay at home with them he's probably not going to be interested in marrying me.  So, in a nutshell, I realized that I will most likely never get married, nor will I have kids.  It is disturbing, but I think I'm okay with it, because I know what an annoying pill I can be, and this is probably for the best.  Besides, since kids freak me out, I'm really not good mom material.  I guess after years of worrying about meeting Mr. Right, I now can relax and know that is not my destiny.  Weird, as disturbed as I was, I feel relieved.

In other news, I'm having some job related issues, that I definitely need wisdom in.

This little piggy went wii, wii, wii all the way home...

 I have never been into video games.  They were one of those things that I really could care less about.  That was why I was a bit surprised at myself, a few months ago, when I suddenly developed a desire to own a Wii.  Actually, I really wanted to get Wii fit, since it appeared to be a pretty good exercise program.  I decided that I if I got a good tax refund I would invest in a Wii.  Well, last night my new toy finally arrived.  My first mistake was trying to put it all together while watching Chuck.  Thankfully, even though I was distracted, I did manage to figure it all out.  Never before have I been put through so much hassle for something so small.  I called my best friend in the middle of being up to my eyeballs in cords and remotes and said, "I feel like I've given birth.  Never before has something so small required so many cords.  I can't imagine that birth is much more painful."  However, I really am enjoying it.  Especially, the whole part where it told me that I'm fat.  Duh, I know that.  That's why I bought the thing.

Other bits and pieces about my life right now...

I've only got thirteen weeks and three days left until my externship.  I'm so excited.  I love school, but after 2+ years I'm ready for no tests and no homework. 

Puppets 'n Praiz is getting ready to start up again.  After six years I get to do puppetry again, and I can hardly contain myself.  It's surprised me how excited I am.  I think I love puppets even more than I love my whole vet tech thing.  Who would have known that my true passion would be puppetry.  I've really missed it, and cannot wait to see how God's gonna use this new team.

Currently Watching Psych - The Complete Second Season By James Roday, Dule Hill, Timothy Omundson, Corbin Bernsen, Maggie Lawson see related

Fun with Teeth

That's right ladies and gentlemen, I do not have perfect teeth.  To think that I got through my childhood with no teeth problems is simply unbelievable.  However, my good teeth run is finally, finally over.  Now, of course, I had to deal with the dreaded impacted wisdom teeth a few years ago.  And I have had to deal with the fun of the occasional filling in the last two years.  However, nothing could have prepared me for this last week.

I had been having headaches and my mom's sound advice was that I should go visit Mr. Dentist.  I kept shrugging off this advice, thinking, "It'll get better."  Well it didn't and I finally realized that if I didn't do something I would have to go through ward care week and finals with terrible pain.  So, I set up an appointment and went to see the dentist on Sunday 8/10.  (yes, my dentist is open on Sunday, and yes I did go to church that morning.)  Well, it turned out that my upper right molars were the problem.  One had a filling that had cracked, and it needed to be crowned, the other just needed a filling.  So, I survived most of last week until Friday night at about 6:30.  I had eaten some ice cream and just afterwards I got this explosive pain in my bottom right jaw.  It felt like a firework was going off.  So, I called the dentist and they could get me in.  Back I went and this time I learned that the three back teeth (two molars and a premolar) had cavities.  I spent Friday night, Saturday, and Sunday morning filled with high powered pain meds.  I went and got the teeth filled on Sunday.  So, after this coming Sunday I'll have been to the dentist four times.  Not fun at all.

Finals have been incredibly hard.  I just keep reminding myself that I've only got forty more weeks of class after this week and then my ten weeks of externship, and then I'm done!